Mass Communication: End of Year 2

A few minutes ago marked the end of my second year in Ngee Ann Polytechnic's Mass Communication.

I came in having so many expectations of myself that I raised walls because I was afraid of failing. I was so no-nonsense in year 1. 

The journey was tough, I gave up so many dreams when I realised that, among the course, were the elites of the elites. Everyone in MCM could speak, everyone could write. It took me a while, but time proved the lecturers right. It takes a while for everyone to find their footing.

I have had the pleasure of working with so many splendid and amazing individuals who cared for a project as though they were caring for a baby. 

I realised, after two years, that the process was more important than the results. Perhaps it's because I no longer have anything to prove to myself or my coursemates. It feels so surreal. I have grown so much. I was afraid to share with people my resources, but here I am throwing notes at people and asking them to send it to their friends. I was afraid of coding, but here I am, missing sleep for 2 nights straight doing nothing but coding. 

I was afraid of socialising, but here I am, sharing things about myself to my groupmates. What was I even afraid for?

The year wasn't easy, there were so many times I almost lost my cool, so many times I lost my cool and too many sleepless nights. But I somehow survived. And I think I figured out how I survived.

It holds water, at the end of the day, that even though there are bads in life, if you try to look for it, there'll always be a light at the end of the tunnel. There'll always be a "Let me help you with this", and a "I'll handle it, you take a break". There will always be love and kindness, even if it doesn't surface at first. 

And that, I think, is some of the most beautiful things I've seen ever since I entered the course. The silver lining showing itself again and again. 

I don't usually talk to people, but the right people seemed to have found me, and all I can say is, I hope for nothing but them to stay, even if we're no longer working together.

Thank you, Jermaine, Grace, Charmaine, Wayne, Eugene, Morriz, Reina, Victoria, Ryan, Joye, Coco and Edgen, Hafiz, Charity, Nicole, Yanzhi. You people deserve everything in the world, you helped me pull through this year, and I owe it all to you. Cheers folks, this won't be the last we see of each other. Fate wills it so.